A Distracted Life by Michelle Lanae: September 2010

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Utah trip!

Wow I'm going on a road trip to Utah hooray. I get to play with baby Kaitlyn and See my friend Karyn from Corvallis who I miss so much. I get to hang with Carly and chelsea . I am really excited to see Scott I just miss my brother . I am also excited to go to conference.

Monday, September 27, 2010

FHE

So far I'm not a great family home evening group leader . I'm bossy boring old and impatient how can i make this fhe a success if everybody thinks I'm uptight and boring . Was i so annoying it will be a miracle if I can make friends. also are attendance was like fifty percent that feels like an F too me . I don't know what to do knock on their door every Monday and ask them to come how annoying would that be ? Look the most fun I had FHE was definitely in Corvallis at institute . i mean there so many people and pool and ping pong and other actives and food and dozens of cool people not freshmen who hate each other . and after wards people watch movies or go to open mike night at artsy bars for heavens sake. its just so cool there how can give them something cool . plus people keep telling me how i should do in a non friendly advice way at least it feels like that. maybe they are friendly. man until I came here I thought people would tell me what they were really thinking but no apparently in some cultures no one says any thing they are really thinking till they want explode and because no body else is talking I'm bottling up too. ...... deep breaths slow and count and release breathing deep and slow is so is not just for pregnant people trust me i am not pregnant and it keeps me sane

Thursday, September 16, 2010

I HAVE A JOB

my life is so much better because I have a great job!

I am getting paid to give tours of BYUI how awesome is that . I get to take elementary all over campus

Saturday, September 11, 2010

school

school is just starting up between educational psychology and literacy and world civ . I'm swamped the important thing now is really not to forgot my other classes have hwk too. im not swamped yet because i have hardly any assignments so far but i will be swamped soon

gutair time

my new roommate named Heidi is an excellent musician i don't think life around here will ever get too quite or too boring . we have started a quote wall so far Heidi's quotes follow as such

"I get lipstick on everyone"

"I love green peppers if peppers were men i would marry one"

Thursday, September 2, 2010

my dog the dumbest dog this ever was. he pooped on the floor again.

pop art dahlias

im having fun creating grapic designs with photo tunning they look a little pop art dont you think

I love flowers so here is a little thought

This morning the green fists of the peonies are getting ready
to break my heart
as the sun rises,
as the sun strokes them with his old, buttery fingers

and they open —
pools of lace,
white and pink —
and all day the black ants climb over them,

boring their deep and mysterious holes
into the curls,
craving the sweet sap,
taking it away

to their dark, underground cities —
and all day
under the shifty wind,
as in a dance to the great wedding,

the flowers bend their bright bodies,
and tip their fragrance to the air,
and rise,
their red stems holding

all that dampness and recklessness
gladly and lightly,
and there it is again —
beauty the brave, the exemplary,

blazing open.
Do you love this world?
Do you cherish your humble and silky life?
Do you adore the green grass, with its terror beneath?

Do you also hurry, half-dressed and barefoot, into the garden,
and softly,
and exclaiming of their dearness,
fill your arms with the white and pink flowers,

with their honeyed heaviness, their lush trembling,
their eagerness
to be wild and perfect for a moment, before they are
nothing, forever?

from New And Selected Poems by Mary Oliver

(c) Mary Oliver

Quotes

"you do realize that self loathing is not the same as not eating cake" Laurie ann
that direction,' the Cat said, waving its right paw round, `lives a Hatter: and in that direction,' waving the other paw, `lives a March Hare. Visit either you like: they're both mad.' `But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked. `Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.' `How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice. `You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
Penny Pingleton: Oh, no!
Inigo Montoya: I just work for Vizzini to pay the bills. There's not a lot of money in revenge.
Inigo Montoya: That Vizzini, he can *fuss*.
Inigo Montoya: Hello. My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die.
Penny Pingleton: ...I don't know why we have this room, but there's food, water, a bed, gas mask, Russian language books...
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles", Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3])
I don’t make choices based on the way I characterize myself I characterize myself based on the choices I make - Camille